"..They say in life there is a death
..They say in life there is an end
..But you shouldn't loose hope
..Don't give up before you try .."
Thousands of glass shards on the floor , the rumor of glass breaking fills the small room . Rumors of people talking , cars , screams. Lights that violate the quietness of this small place. I can't think , too much noise in this city . Too many lights , you can't tell if its night or day.This is ..
..Sin City ...
The TV ain't making any noise anymore . The good thing is it ain't transmitting that poetry crap anymore too.I look at it , a big hole in the middle ,the metallic ashtray i threw at it lies on the floor. Shake my head slowly while i stand up from the old bed of this smelly motel room, guess i need some fresh air after all , to think clearly , to get my thoughts together again.
Nothing is going the way i thought it would , i ain't finding any traces from Ernszt in this place...
"Taking off into the steamy night without a backward glance-
To a noisy world of lights, drinking, debauchery, gambling, and dance"
-Shut up!!!- I hear myself screaming , while looking over at the Tv. What is wrong in here. What the f*** is wrong in these last days...
A man walks out of a small motel room , a Tv that was never switched on stands near the wall,destroyed !!
** ** **
Screams come from the room nearby , the rumor of a body that gets slammed against the room's door can be heard.
- Ohh yess sugar daddy , harder , you are so tough ..-
Shake my head in disgust , as i walk through the motels aisle . Seems as if "Miss" Shana has clients today ...
The taste of wood in mouth becomes stronger , i recognize i am biting the toothpick harder than i should ...
Out of the building the fresh night breeze rushes toward my face. While looking around and deciding where i should go , something catches my attention.
"A mind is a terrible thing to waste , help support the united negro college fund " A small trailer is shown in a big screen just for a couple of seconds , Immediately replaced by :
" Call me , I'm here for you all night long , we can talk ..we can.."
- This sh*** disgusts me , look at that , replaced by a "grown up" trailer- I catch myself shouting in the night , good thing that no one was passing nearby.
Suddenly the strong wish of seeing the dark side of all this shiny life comes over.I want to see where the lie ends , and so i find myself wandering where there are no fancy lights , no trailers , no casinos.
Just... feces and urine on the streets and sidewalks!!I see homeless people use the downtown streets as a single huge toilette. People sleeping on cart boards..
- Please sir , only two bucks , please sir , i need to eat , haven't touched food in three days -
He says to me .Skinny , smelly , a living tremor. I give him the money , the grateful light in his eyes
is immediately replaced by a greedy one. In just and instant i se that small body jumping around the place, looking around like a dog on a bone. Than running toward a man , unnoticed 'till now ,which is standing near a wall.
- here , here "Rusher" i've got enough money , here. Now gimme the stuff...-
"Let us walk , to sleep there is no time .
Let us switch on, as long we can ,
a small light in this whole garbage "
Shake my head again, schocked , surprised . What the f*** is wrong with me . This will be a looong night..
** ** **
The monotone rumors of steel wheels rotating over steel rails.A bump brings me back into this world , where am i now ? Surprised i look around just to find myself inside a tram. Bored and tired people sitting around , poor and mid class people sitting all around. Loosers.
Something although prevents me from closing my eyes and falling into sleep again . Four eyes !! Four eyes , there is so much pressure, so much desire, so much nostalgia..A boy and a girl.
The young man is in his twenties , long hair , tired eyes , pale.He is wearing a long black trench coat , just as if he would want to hide from the entire world
The Boy
" I feel emptiness in my stomach , i feel my heart is going to explode , i feel my throat is dry , i feel my whole body tremor. Finally i see you again , and its not like i thought it would be.I feel i could cry , but
..but men don't do that. A dream in the dream , can it be ? Or am i really in Las Vegas after all these years. I think it would be better for me if this would be a dream. This is not the way i wanted it to happen , not like this , not a surprise encounter , i had planned everything . I would knock at your door , and i wouldn't bother if your father would be the one standing in front of me...so much time has passed ..Aeris"
The Girl
" Happiness , the one coming from a man is the shortest sort of happiness . but the most dreamed .The shortest , but the most dreamed...
Such sorts of feelings live way too high above the ground . On a small house on the clouds .
..god please beware me from the thunder . So many years , i thought i was over you i thought i had forgot, and now this.."
A scene like in the movies , i could read in their eyes , something was going on between these two. Feelings , pathetic fallout from a time in which people were not beasts. I was over all these things , but i was bored ..
Another bump , the tram suddenly stopped, the doors were open. Time to get out ? The end of a little drama. First one to stand up was the girl. She acted as if she hadn't noticed the boy , as if the whole time she was looking through him.Walked out without turning her head back . I looked over at the boy , which sighed , he was undecided about the doings but that only for a couple of seconds . After which he ran out too , ran fast toward the girl.
-Aeris ..is , is that really you..?-
She turned toward him - Let's not be hypocrites - she said trying to hide her emotions
the boy mumbled something . I saw all this , curious i had come out of the tram too. Nothing to do , nothing to pas the time with i decided to follow 'em.
Not knowing this was going to be more than just a little story to tell in a bar
- Ok, than we will meet in two hours ok , even in night schools they have a big pause not? - the boy asked excited.
She nooded in agreement , and than walked slowly away.Happines , that's what is was , that is what i saw painted in his face . A happiness that was about to be destroyed in an instant .
- Listen , i'll say this only once , don't you never ever come near that girl anymore - someone spoke slowly but secure of himself
The boy turned around , and saw standing at his side , another young man . Much smaller , but a real hardbone he was , you could see that in his eyes .
-This means trouble - i mumbled angrily , while my fingers touched the cold steel in my left pocket.
- Why?- the boy asked curiously , he couldn't care less about anyone right now.
- Because she is mine ..?- The other one said sourly, while looking at the boy's face. Later on i came to know that this one had been chasing the girl for years , and she had always turned him back.
- Listen , why don't we talk about this quietly , lets sit in that bar over there , i am not a piece of meat , we can clear things up like civilized people- The boy answered. It seemed so as if he convinced the other one for an instant.
I breathed heavily , really pleased about this.Until i saw something else .The shorter man looked over at a car standing nearby , and nooded before the two of 'em entered the bar.
What i saw really pissed me off , four other wannabe Tysons were sitting inside the car just awaiting the right moment.I saw , really pissed , i was involved in something i wouldn't have wanted to ..
In my pocket there was a debt card ..
of 10000 dollars.It's easy getting something like this when you suddenly are looked as one of the best in your job. they would come in handy .Headed toward a bancomat and took something like 5000 bucks in cash out of it. Than i entered the bar slowly ...
** ** **
- Listen up kid , and do as your told , tell the other one that was all you had to say , stand up and go out of the bar. Its better for you , ah and get ready to receive a really heavy beating if you can't throw fists first- I said to the boy while he looked surprised at me . Had patiently awaited the right moment , and it came as he stood up to go to the bathroom .He thought about something after looking at me for quite some time . Than he nooded in agreement.
A couple of minutes later
The two were discussing emerged , when the boy stood up , and after looking over at me got out of the bar. What followed was a fast row of events
The other one ran after him , and as he got outside of the bar too screamed direction car
-..Get that somomabitch , just give him the beating of a lifetime ..-
Four "Toughies" got out of the car , and ran toward the boy , a fight errupted. The boy punched the first one straight away , received a hard kick in the face immediately after that and felt hard on the ground , only three of 'em were up , since the first felt on the floor immediately after the punch and was not mooving
- hey cocky - i screamed toward the shorty that was still in the entrance , he hadn't noticed i was standing behind him. Surprise is a good ally . He felt down from the stairs , face first on the ground , i ran toward him lifted him up , and delivered some strong slaps ..
The reinforcement was there too , because money makes the day . Two bikers were standing near the boy beating the crap outta the three "Toughies" . Had spotted 'em in the bar , luckily ...
** ** **
the five of 'em stood up cleaning their clothes from the street dust ..
- This ain't over yet - they screamed .
Looked over at em , and with the two bikers and the boy behind me , i walked toward the five "Toughies "
- Oh yes ? well it better be -I said quietly - Now , Here are thousand bucks!! And Look over there -
They turned around , and saw two beauties walking toward us , high class call girls , the sort that costs thousand and over dollars for a night.
- That too is a little present! Just let you know you ain't messing up with a ham&egger here - I said looking over at 'em
-Now grab your feet , your chicks and have a fun time , ah and never ever bother again my cousin here , did i make myself clear ?...Capish?-
I said acting like those old italo-Americans that rule the business , you know what i am talking about ..
** ** **
- here boy , this is my cell phone number , don't call when its too late , you cant call from above the clouds , if you know what i mean ..-
He nooded in agreement
I guess it was time for two youngsters to meet again , and talk about old times..!!
Me?
..ohh me , well this will be a long night i guess
Because this
Is Sin city
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