Painful Secrets From a Beautiful Heart.

[AngelGirl]

So empty and cold the feeling
so cloudy this sunny day
so lost it feels inside
nothing left to say but apologise

you dont seem to wanna hear it
it was a honest mistake
no harm was meant to be done to you
from this silly little pranky game

always cared for you like my own
but you hurt me so much,
so much that there was nothing i could do
i felt stuck in that unforgetable dawn,

do try and understand my actions
only tried to make u realise of how i felt
you should have never felt the jelousy
there was no need for it, it was just a waste of time and silly

you would have remained a trustworthy mate to me
but next time i guess we shoud both think before we act
just in case it all takes place again and gets complicated
and feel like a artist does not understand his own art


PS: 14th June 2005 at 1.10am

[AngelGirl]

Thirteen Years

Thirteen years have passed on
since the day you left and from me you moved on
Couldn't understand because i was so young
i never realised this is what for you he had planned

If i had been older, i would have tried my best
to make you have a childhood like the rest
Although now you are grown up and happy
i still cannot help but wonder what would have been
if you stayed with me, would life had beed more blue
or blossom like the trees full of leafes in green.

Now god has blessed you with a cosy home
you have two angels that makes you forget the pain
but now i have grown and the anger in me cannot let me
forget of what he did and move on.

A day will soon come and ill see you again
you and your family will have me near you
but i will never forget what he put us through
for all the hurt he caused her and us
he will pay for it one day and i will be there first smiling along the way.

[AngelGirl]

Here I stand and think about,
how stranged life seems to have turned out
all these years as the oldest i wore the crown.
Out of no where I felt your presence
to us you came back and broke the happiness.

I know am supposed to love you
but that is something i cannot do
I do it for the sake of her
because in my heart there is no feeling at all

Dont blame me, I am just speaking the truth
You have to understand you cannot wear again them shoes
You stepped out of your place along time ago when you made you choice
and now you're back like nothing took place.

You hurt her and now you're hurting me
he seemed a better thing at that point
i dont blame you you were a child you thought you made the right choice,
you say you still believe it was right, but then why do you complain about how hard life was...come on tell me WHY?!

[StormAngel]

Me kujton titulli ne filmin "Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind".

Guilty secrets kemi te gjithe, por ralle kush mund t`i shpreh keshtu si ti.
Komplimente

[AngelGirl]

Flm CheLives ;))

Kurse kte qe do shkruaj tani eshte dicka me ndryshe, nje pjese e mar nga nje liber qe po lexoj tani. Libri quhet A Mother's Story i cili eshte i shkruajtur nga Sara Payne, e jema e Sarah Payne, e cila ne 1 Korrik 2000 mosha ateher 7/8 vjece u rrembye dhe u gjet e vrare. Tragjedia e saj u be e njohtur dhe me e rendesishme se cdo vrasje tjeter ne Angli dhe vazhdon te kujtohet ajo engjull e vogel. Me poshte do shkruaj disa poezi qe u dedikuan asaj dhe nje leter e shkruar dhe e lexuar nga e jema e saj te cilat ndodhen ne librin e botuar.

Kjo leter e shkruar nga Sara Payne dhe u lexua ne funeralin te bijes se saj.

Taken from Chapter4 - The Funeral

'Dear Sara, ever since you came bounding into our lives at two in the morning, with no phone in the house, one tooth in your head and a smile that would melt ice, we loved you.
'You were the joy that made our lives full. In the house, under the garage with your pushchair full of slugs and woodlice, you talked to us for hours. Dad called you Princess - because thats what you are.
'You'd never rise before 10 a.m. and when you started school we thought you'd never get up. But you loved it. You loved your friends and you loved your teachers.
'When you had your gromments put in, you were scared. Then you were drunk on the pre-med and still giggled. Most of all, you were brave - but never quite brave enough to have your ears pierced, though we got to the shop several times.
'As a sister you were great. Lee misses you chats. Luke misses your rows. And Charlotte...she misses you. Your stories, your songs, your games, and most of all your huggles. As a daughter, my darling' - at this point i could not stop the tears - 'Oh, Princess, you were perfect. Love always and for ever, Mummy and Daddy.'


PS: Fotoja e Sara Payne dhe vogelushes Sarah Payne qe jeton ne zemrat e gjith publikut Anglez.

[AngelGirl]

Kjo poezia eshte e shkruar dhe u lexua ne memorialin e Sarah's nga daja i saj Keith.


Taken from Chapter 3 - Murder

Her giggle,
Her smile,
Her adorable face.
Her hug,
Her kiss,
Her loving embrace.
Her warmth,
Her charm,
Her indomitable spark.
Her energy,
Her zest,
Her indelible mark.
Her sweetness,
Her love,
Her gentle ways.
Her belief,
Her trust,
Her joy in our praise.
Her faith,
Her bond,
With her sister and brothers.
Her closeness,
Her devotion,
To her father and her mother.
Etched in our hearts,
And undiminished,
Remains forever,
This endearing image.

[AngelGirl]

Taken from Chapter AFTERMATH!

The words below are found in the headstone of Sarah's grave:

SARAH EVELYN ISOBEL
PAYNE
Aged 8
Born 13th October 1991
Takes from us on 1st July 2000

She took a lighted candle
Into a room we cannot find,
But we know she was here,
Because of the happiness she left behind.

Rest in Pease little Princess
Forever missed our beautifull Daughter and Sister


She'll never really leave us
She will live on in us all
The way she Cared, Shared
And made us Happy

Grand daughter, cousin, niece & Friend

[AngelGirl]

The Heart!

The heart is beautiful and generous
she has eyes, ears and mind of its own
If she wants, she does as she may please
she is a pleasure and a big tease

The heart is weak and breakable
so soft and delicate
She holds the light to fire
she fulfills our lives with passionate desire

Hey beauty and delicatessen makes her unique
how she manages control us like this is hard to speak
Our heart claims she has the strongest power
If so is the truth, then why is she so easily broken,
shattared and falls like a hitt tower.

She can be so smart and bright it fulls your mind
that she is always right and cannot do wrong
and what she feels must be spoken
then just as you're convinced to do so
it ends in betrayal, you're left into pieces broken

Everytime you're convinsed
that you've learned a lesson
she is ready fast and running,
although a life time for us it seems
she is ready to forget the past blasts
she is willing for a new fantasy to dream

How we will deal with it
we dont have the answer to
our heart is a child mature then its age
an adult too old for a child's game
out heart a unsolved mistery it will remain.


* Wed 6th July 05'

[AngelGirl]

Fallen

Fallen in my bed i lay
thinking of the past day
in the morning when i wake up
i dread the usual daily routine
never realising i could make it over and over again
without you here next to me holding my hand.

Fallen i feel, like i cannot pick myself up
wondering how tomorrow will pass by
what will i be doing to loose the dreadfull thoughts
of this horrible reality nightmare
Maybe a little walk will be nice
around the country side with my friends and I.

No matter about tomorrow or what i choose to do
All that goes through my mind is me and you
Day and night awake and fallen i remain
waiting on the day you come and pick me up,
reasure me I am not one to blame.

*Wed 6th July 05'

[AngelGirl]

Lost Little Girl

Cuddly and loveable child
and her big green watery eyes
with the world shinning opposite her
i keep wondering why does she cry

So soft her dark chestnut hair
i walk towards to comfort her
while i take my hand and try to reach
i wake up realising i was asleep
of whom had i just dreamed?

Go back to sleep i tell myself
try and reach that lost little girl
observe her and see if i can set her free
but frightened by what i may see
i am to shaken to go back to sleep.


*Thur 7th July 05'