Ditari i ndjenjave (gjuhë e huaj)

[*~Rexhina~*]

Monday 11, April, 2005 :/

Assuage your fears, and think positive. But how can I? The negative thoughts i cannot avoid. I drift into thoughts of disappointment, naivety, time squandering ...apprehending my own predilections...yet the disappointment i abominate...should i forgive and forget? No this is becoming redundant...let time disclose you what is the right choice.

[MisCongeniality]

Dear Diary,

Just out of curiosity….don’t you ever get sick and tired of generations of people, dumping their intellectual crap on you every moment of eternity? Don’t you ever feel nauseated and want to throw up all the gibberish piled up within you in different languages and writing styles? Don’t you ever feel edgy, craving to scream until your uvula oscillates like a pendulum, “STOPPPPPPPPPPP. I don’t care about your problems. I don’t give a hoot about your fake nail that broke or his cat that refuses to flush the toilet.”
Don’t you wish you could plug up your ears so that no string of human thought passes through? Don’t you long of being in the company of SILENCE for even a split of a second and slowly stretch out your worn out pages and aerate the spaces between them?

If you answered yes to any of these questions, I am truly sorry. Grow up and stop complaining. You signed up for this never-ending job until the judgment day and you’d better deal with it. You cannot quit!!
Bye, bye now, sweetie. I have places to go, people to see, and goals to accomplish! :D

[s0ni]

11. 04. 2005

Thanks for the tip! Tonight will be my turn ...

PS: I hope you did well.

Thanks I'm optimistic, shpresoj qe dhe ti :)


SAFETY BELTS

I know everyone hears it alot, so I don't think you would mind me repeating it. Wear your safety belts while driving!!!! Yesterday a friend of mine got in a car accident while driving to work. He got a fractured arm and lost his left eye, (the socket of his eye got ruptured and therefore he lost his eyesight on this eye). If he had worn the seat belt then he would have been OK. Today, ONE day after the accident the doctors are releasing him from the hospital ?????? the beauty of american health care. It is scary when stuff like this hits close to home, It can and might happen to anyone of us so take all of the precautions that are available to you.

[MisCongeniality]

Postuar dy here. Sorry guys.

[MisCongeniality]

Dear Diary,

Come closer, closer, closer, please! I have a secret to whisper into your ear. I don’t want the entire world to hear, so pay attention and don’t make me repeat….

Now, you see dear diary, I don’t like it when you open your gates wide open to the entire world, allowing anyone and everyone to eve’s drop on our conversations. How do you expect me to tell you what truly is in my heart in front of so many people?

You know dear diary, you are the storage box to my life-long experiences. You are the one whose cheeks I scratch with my anger and whose pages I tear with frustration. Into your very existence I carve my sorrows and glorious moments. In your company, I am the real ME, the person that very few have ever met. I lay down my iron shield and go about being myself because I know you don’t judge me. I can be wearing an old pair of pajamas, faded from overuse, and have my hair in a pony tail and you still find me adorable. In front of you, etiquette is a word without meaning. I can yell, scream and curse and you don’t think of me as impolite. I can sing on top of my lungs and you just listen mesmerized even though the tune is more like a crow’s screeching sound. I can eat my dinner straight out of the cooking pan and you just smile at my basic instincts. I carelessly wipe my tears off the shirt’s sleeve and you console me, offering another of your white pages to poor my sorrows into.

Now you understand that if I talk to you while all these people are watching, it will either be about things I care less or about things I don’t mind the world knowing. So please offer no more. I will meet with you when the night has covered the city and the world has fallen asleep.
However, before I go, here are some random thoughts for you….God is warming up my life, light is brightening up my room, and peace is finally settling into my soul. And oh, I also got internet at home. :D

[Veshtrusja]

18-04-2005

Have you ever thought to yourself: " 'I want to 'know', but then again I 'don't want to know' "? Is it really within "our control" to chose only those things which we wish to learn? On-and-off I keep wondering about the power of selection, choice compared to the power of, what should I call it, .... the power of life itself (?). Do we simply chose that which we desire to know or are there some things we learn regardless of whether we want to know them? The answer is obvious, I think.... What I find particularly funny is the fact that we often think we know that which we don't know only to be proven wrong at a later time. Does this mean, however, that at that later time we have learned that which we did not know before? Perhaps...

[Veshtrusja]

22.04.05

Today is the perfect day, especially if you have a runny nose. It's perfect because you can stay underneath two blankets. Perfect because you can drink a cup of hot tea. With honey. It wouldn't be perfect without honey... and lemon, too. It's perfect because you can watch a movie. Even if you rent it for the second time, it's still perfect. It's perfect because it suits the mood, my mood...

[MisCongeniality]

Dear diary,

Let's get to the point. T.G.I.F!

See you when I have nothing else better to do! And u know it won't happen during the weekend. :D

[StormAngel]

Dear diary

I am writing to you cause my day started so badly at work, untill...untill a person called me, and completely changed the course of this day.
I am just happy, I have spent a whole evening in total happiness and I keep telling my self I am one lucky person.
However, after the sun, always comes rain, and for I got to wake up for work tommorow, the feeling of fullfilness fades away and here comes cruel reality.
Damn, if it could only last a little bit longer. :)
Anyways, TGIF! (Thankg God It`s Friday)

[MisCongeniality]

Dear Diary,
I hope Stormi gets a life-changing phone call every day of his life because he seems like a nice guy who deserves to be happy.
He just has to learn to keep the memories fresh for a bit more than just a mere day 'cuz they might never come again! :)