Ditari i ndjenjave (gjuhë e huaj)

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...in these moments...im really shocked....i know words are only words but they influence a lot... and also they have the power to hurt even more...Today i heard some stories from one of my friends about a person that i thought i knew him, i believed in him, and the truth was that i was completely wrong...i dont know how i feel in this moments...betrayed, angry....even though im relieved....
thanks God, im not with that person anymore...its true...I deserve more, i want to write to him a lil' note where it says: "i know who u ar...son of a *itch" but then i thought about it, and its not Worth it...he lost me...i guess thats Enough!!!

Im glad that im part of this diary, where i can express myself and share it...and this place is somehow helpful...

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interesting...no one wrote anything yet in this diary...and i ended up reading my own writing...the last thing i wanted to (feeling sad)...

Today was such a long day! and i still feel weak...my head is so heavy...i feel tired!!! i just want to sleep and never wake up again...'to be lost in my own dreams"
It comes a point in our lives, when you realize how short life is...and how we abuse with it, by not being aware of whats around us and within us...in and out!!!

after all these hot days of summer...finally it rained and i hated it...i felt cold...alone!

[*~Rexhina~*]

september 19, 2005
I just encountered a guy that my sister had in class, he knows me because of her. I saw him on the pre-med Suture Clinic event, but didn't talk to him...i felt awkward to talk first, he didn't either...we exchanged looks number of times, but both too shy to say something. He is so good looking damn it, only should be a bit taller, but it compensates the other good qualities he has :)...tanned, big brown eyes, beautiful smile, with great teeth (he wants to go to dental school)...anyways, 5 minutes ago as I was walking towards the library I see him, I smile he smiles too, he says something but i didn't hear him, so I just asked him "how are you"..."fine, i am just kind of busy"..he said something about running up and down for a meeting..."oh you are working now?" ..."no i am a senator for student governement"...at that moment i was thinking "so impressive...he gets involved :p"...than he said something about my glasses "they are those glasses that when you go outside are with shades"..."oh yes..you have the same?"---"no regular glasses"..."now you are wearing contact lenses?" i asked pretending i didn't know lol..."yes"..."i should get some too" :p..."no but some people look good with the glasses, you look good"...i smiled but i felt so "awkwardly shy"...than i told him about hte CPR meeting ...he told me he was on dental society so that is why he didnt' know about it, but will try to attend that event...hopefully i see him there :-)

[*~Rexhina~*]

Just took my anatomy lab practical exam...i feel kind of "furious" well maybe not that much...but what the hell, i learned all those processes in a single bone, and some of the questions that the teacher asked was what kind of bone?...i was expecting only structures damn it...yes he did ask about structures, but somehow i wanted all of them to be about structures so my effort that i spend only for two days :p...wouldn't go as a waist...i even had a dream about it..." me picking up the femur and saying, "the round extended part is the trochlea, next to it is capitulum, and than lateral condyle that goes with the lesser trochanter" and than receiving the exam, where an excellent grade is written in bold :D...but damn it, he had to include tissues :(...i knew i had to spend some time on those freaking slides...oh well hope someone doesn't get 100, that means no freaking curve :/

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You and I collide....it sounds like i found my Song...


The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you
Yeah

I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find
You and I collide

I'm quiet you know
You make a frist impression
I've found I'm scared to know I'm always on your mind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find
You and I collide

You finally find
You and I collide
You finally find
You and I collide

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[Leila]

I hate that commercial where that car goes everywhere and somehow the cars surrounding it turn to ashes. The music is sad. They mean to make it seem peaceful, to force-feed the concept that their cars are superior to the others, and they try to do it in the least (seemingly) threatening way, all the while providing the most miserable commercial I've ever seen. There is an unmistakenly threatening and diabolical tone in it, in equating the rest of the cars as something worse than nothing... as an inveitable destruction, rather, and nobody wants to drive the cars that turn to ashes. Instead of questioning the phenomenon, they rush to avoid the fate of the ash-car-owners. What are we missing here?

[IsiNYC]

I believe you're referring to the song below.... the commecrical is annoying but the song is a classic!

Dust in the Wind

I close my eyes
Only for a moment, then the momen't gone
All my dreams
Pass before my eyes, a curiosity
Dust in the wind
All they are is dust in the wind

Same old song
Just a drop of water in an endless sea
All we do
Crumbles to the ground, though we refuse to see
Dust in the wind
All we are is dust in the wind, ohh

Now, don't hang on
Nothing lasts forever but the earth and sky
It slips away
And all your money won't another minute buy
Dust in the wind
All we are is dust in the wind
All we are is dust in the wind

Dust in the wind
Everything is dust in the wind
Everything is dust in the wind
The wind

[Cupke_pe_Korce]

“She knew, and yet she feared, that triumph must walk on cadavers before it claims the throne, and if this price was nonnegotiable, so be it! For some are destined to reign, while some others to crawl in dust. She was glad to realize that nothing could bite more badly than her high heels. Indeed, they’d have wounded any soil she wished to walk upon, and hell! she detested getting them dirty. But, my dearest, if the entire universe was conspiring against her own shoes, how could she possibly resist walking down the red carpet, unfurled exclusively for the “Queen of Night?”
Here, Scheherazade paused and looked at the sky. Falling stars scratched the night; her eyelashes the unyielding conscience of the King. It was one of those nights when one could hear the heart of the universe pounding; one of those nights when the flickering starlight dashed upon the earth like autumn showers.
“Continue with the story - said the King quite charmed,- I find it tremendously amusing.” And Scheherazade began the tale of the serpent which, unable to spill its venom elsewhere, turns on itself…

[*~Rexhina~*]

My horoscope today:

Your energy's so red-hot, people might legitimately be afraid of getting burned. Calibrate your approach accordingly; there's no need to play it cool, but save a little of the heat for after the first impression.

it cracked me up :D

[Mbreti_ILI]

Even the life is not so fair … And what are you expecting from me to be ???