Ditari i ndjenjave (gjuhë e huaj)

[*~Rexhina~*]

:) unknown...how many nights i have cried thinking the same thing you wrote...how will i ever survive without them...thoughts stimulate such painful reactions that at that moment you just won't to deny all the circumstances that would/could happen in the future....my thoughts were such as: "i wish to be gone the same time that they will" eventually it alleviated my feelings...then i delved more in what i thought by questionin my previous thoughts..."what if i am married...and i have children...i cannot leave my children and husband behind"...hmmm

anyways

August 27
I realized that judging ones reaction can play a sarcastic role which will eventually lead to an unexpected emulation pertaining to you...vis a vis...same situation... conducting the same decision...when it comes to love, forgiveness seems a cure for the sole :rolleyes:....do you believe in second chances...what if you give a person a chance that later on you might regret...should you just go with the flow and await what the future has stored for you...what will others think...but why should one burden his/her thoughts once the disclosure is fraught with criticism?

[BRADYKININ]

Here is an Oprah-like message from daily motivator that was just sent to me. You must know English, put on your speakers and possess some patience to go through the slides. :D Enjoy!

http://dailymotivator.com/memberflash/rightnow.html

[BRADYKININ]

...it's amazing how different people are, yet how similar in essence. We consider ourselves unique, yet....why do we find ourselves in other people's words? Why does it feel like someone has stolen our life...our story...our pain and sorrow?

[Undefined]

I realized how important is to open to someone, and tell your own stories, some pieces of your life, important in your own world...feelings, pain, anger etc...even questions trying to find an answer, trying find yourself!....and the most important thing is being appreciated and comforted...which helps you to move on...and be thankful for what you have accomplished so far...

By doing mistakes we learn, by learning we accomplish, by accomplishing we reach our goals... and who knows we might be satisfied...!!!
Thank You! and please don't blame me! =)

[IsiNYC]

I offered my surrender, complete pa interes - only to feel trampleted upon, taken advantage of. So I suited up, put on my shield as well as an Albanian man can. Cold and Decisive. I swung my sword of silence side to side creating a distance as she watched in awe....my Resurection. Why do I still feel defeated?

[StormAngel]

...and there is only time.
Yet, it seems like all I have left is time. Time and you. But, please, for the love of God, don`t you get lost in time. Don`t!

I`ll wait...as long as it takes
Let there be time.

[IsiNYC]

"If you wanna hang out, you gotta - take her out.......Cocaine" Eric Clapton

The weekend is finally here.....Labor Day weekend. NY is an frenzy. Everyone trying to make plans making sure that they're not left out of the loop. The emergence of the metrosexual hasn't flown under the radar as guys line up for their manicures, go on weekend shopping sprees pay their weekly visits to their 'hair stylists' all so they can look impeccable Friday, Saturday and Sunday night.

"If you got bad news, you wanna kick them blues; cocaine." Eric onceagain Clapton

I thought about shopping, but half way to Macy's Labor Day Sale Extravaganza I decided to barge in on a friend who's chronically suffering from the night before. On our way to the cafe, I passed by the barber shop (not having upgraded to a salon quite yet) tempted for a buzz. My hair is stuck in that ackward transition period between Really Short and Short where its too long to look good as it is and too short to style into any attractive fashion. Still, I held off. My desire to grow it out outweighed the desire to fix the .....hmmm I don't quite know what to call it.

"If your thing is gone and you wanna ride on; cocaine" youshouldknowwhobynow

The night was young. We uncorcked a bottle of cheap wine and sipped away past the cigarette smoke looking forward to a seemingly uneventful night. The Albanian party at Essex has been the cornerstone of the holiday weekend. We opt out for it everytime to take a break from the routine NY chic scene that fills every other weekend.

"If you wanna get down, down on the ground; cocaine." uhuh

Its hard to describe the NYC lights as your driving by 6th avenue and Houston street. A swarm of yellow taxis fight for space like lions in a jungle fighting for their prey. People fill the streets and its hard not to notice the carnival-like atmosphere. NY definately has a buzz tonight.

isi
9.4.2005

[*~Rexhina~*]

Lethargic....and for what? sitting on a high stool in front of everybody, while aiding (once in a while) the patrons with some of the most ridiculous inquiries that they have: "how do i print?"

Bored out of my mind...i try to study, but I feel kind of depressed...alone, and the thought of going home doing nothing but studying or going to sleep doesn't alleviate my feeling even a bit.

[Undefined]

Why we try so hard to explain specific characteristics and mechanisms of the human body?! Isn’t that too much...
All I think about it, is...that we are a complicated species...different sensations in our own way...
The very fact that we remain alive is almost beyond our control, for hunger makes us seek food, fear makes us seek refuge; sensation of cold makes us look for warmth. Other forces cause us to seek for fellowship and to reproduce...therefore human being is an automaton, and the fact that we sense feelings and being knowledgeable about these feelings is part of this automatic sequence of life...which makes us to build and to adapt under varying conditions…
That’s why we are egoists as a living being…cause all the forces that we seek for… are related to our well being, interests, and fulfilling our desires…I already hate the fact of being a human being…

.....cause i dont feel like studing all this forces! lol.....

[BRADYKININ]

Do you believe in CHANCE? To be at a particular place at the very same exact time as someone you haven't seen in a long time....hundreds of miles from where you first met. You look up and....

This afternoon I convinced my study partner to go read at a coffee shop instead of the library where everyone is officially MUTE. She agreed and took me to a local Barnes N Noble where I had never been before. Casually I asked her why here and not at the usual Starbucks/Panera, where the seats, atmosphere, and food are much more appealing. "Common, for a change," she replied. As we're going toward the cafe area, I see someone crunched over a chair, very concentrated in what she was reading. Curious by nature, I squinted to read the book title at the top of the page when she looked up. I froze and she droped her book. She exclaimed my name, jumped from the chair and gave me a beary hug while all I could blabber was...oh my God, oh my God.

It was my best friend I hadn't seen in 2 1/2 years. After the first 1 1/2 years of rooming together, she moved to California to study for her exams. I had received an email from her, letting me know that she was in NY but I had been too busy with studies.

Wow....life has pleasant surprises once in a while. You get up in the morning without knowing what lays out there for you. Live to find out! ;)