Where Am I ?

[Veshtrusja]

its quiet
very quiet
so quiet that
its defening
im on the floor
my back against the couch
my feet touching the leg of the table
my hand supporting my chin
when i look down
i see papers
lots of papers
and words
God, so many words
a blue marker
a pen
two poster boards
they are white
so so white
I actually feel bad to mark them
to place words on them
words that may be inaccurate
and then....
i pause.
i hear nothingness
emptiness
there are no more papers
no more markers
there is only me
i see only my body
the one on the floor
and the other above it
one made of flesh
the other made of smoke, fog
one is numb
not thinking
not questioning
not wondering
the other watches in silence
disilusionment!
confusion!
how can there be two bodies
when there is only one of me?
perhaps one is only an image of the body
after all, it is only see-through smoke
but....
its the smoke that is observant
at times it can distance itself
from the flesh
and other times it can attach itself once more
...but, right, now,
i don't care where it is
as long as IT knows where it is
i don't care
i just want to gaze into the silence
forget about the papers
about the flesh
eventually
i know the minute, or is it second,
either way
i know it will pass
the smoke will once more enter the flesh
the papers will reappear
the marker will be there
and so will all the words
...and i will start to hear the clock ticking
reality will kick in.

[EXODUS]

...and to abruplty feel so
one with the body,
one with the mind,
one with the soul,
one with your own very self,
it means giving up on more,
more, than you ever wanted,
even more,
more, than you could have ever impeccably thought of
more, than you could have ever had
willingnessly more than life itself.

[Veshtrusja]

and if to be one
means
to give up another part of yourself?
are you still one?
...
lose one part
to gain another?
lose
to
gain?
...
where are you
if
you lose
to
gain?

[EXODUS]

Failure to unconsciously "absorb" the point intended
unnecessarily triggers an unexpected oucome.

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...and to abruplty feel so
one with the body,
one with the mind,
one with the soul,
one with your own very self,
it means (neglecting oneself) giving up on more, ---> ...willingnessly more than life itself

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It is undeniably with the whole being...
that one lives life, to its fullest!


Salute!

[Veshtrusja]

if it were only that simple as
to "neglect one's self"....

but, here i agree:

It is undeniably with the whole being...
that one lives life, to its fullest