a husbands notes about her

[liliella]

S+HE
She is an S
Sinuous ladyslippering

He
I am He
My voice goes out
He heil he heel he stamp myself indelible
my He deeds my He doings
what a wondrous work is I-He Man

sss
sssss
little bubbles of s escape
rippling the mirror
imperfections
ssssssssssss
what is she whispering
what is she hiding from he/me

what
isssss
s
sssssshe
s



she talks on the telephone to her girlfriends
He did
Oh no
He really did
I cant believe it
of course they’re all the same
who do we know for her
there must be somebody
she is too good for him but anyway

the martears
the goodesses
the dainty diviners
deigning to descend



her shopping list
olives stuffed with
virgin dreams

1 father-lover
1 husband-child

[liliella]

her daily chores
wash
clothes dishes stains of memory
iron
shirts pillowcases sighs

straighten out
drawers shelves him

[liliella]

how she reads the newspaper
a headline first
the weather box
amusements
sale at a store
recipe
obits
society
another headline
another sale
tv and radio listing
cartoon on the editorial page
book review
carryover from a page one story then
goes back to page one and skims the beginning

[liliella]

the missing half
i never know from one day to the next
how she will greet me
be my mate
or a formal acquaintance

is that because she is always Persephone
six months underground with Pluto father of the dark
dark steeping deep
six moths above Demeter mothering meadows of
milky mild wildweed

is she angry because I can never be her mother
as she can many times be mine ?

[liliella]

she beholds herself in the mirror
i love you you’re a movie star
oh god I’m growing old
my eyes are good so is my skin
and my cheekbones
what’s that mole cancer?
I don’t want to be my mother
save me from it
ghastly beginning of a mustache
and scrawny turkey skin on my neck
I need a little softer light
if I tint my hair I’m afraid it will grow coarser
already there is gray in my pubic
kinkier thicker
my eyes are fine and my smile

Her mouth wobbles and she turns to me
in need
in desperate
and she comes almost too fast for me

Afterwards she dresses and puts on
a ring
a necklace
a belt
she circles herself
circe to her own sorceress
belonging to
her own private world
her smile that moana
a moat
no drawbridge
no way for me to enter
her mind

[liliella]

her smell after sex
fishbroth
skim off the top scuppper
albumin eggwhite
stiffening the sheet
running down her leg
viscous thick enough for soup stock

she sits on the toilet while
i lift my prick into the sink
and wash it gently
pat it
put it into my shorts
"Oh let me do it , " she reaches out from the seat
"dear sweet creatures ," she kisses my balls through the cloth
and she is ready for more right now or if not
she has energy enough to swim a lake
or clim a mountain
or clean a closet

[liliella]

she follows the embroidery directions
the piece of cloth
to be pricked
is first streched

and then bound
with an inner
and an outer

rigid hoop ,
thereby creating
an area

of concentration ;
practice
will demonstrate

just how
the material
should be pulled ,

for if over-
taut: then
the hoops

spring out
and it all
collapses

[Henri]

Who the f**k did all the above? You are driving me nuts babe, don't know which one of you to choose anymore. Can I have both?

[liliella]

WAS THERE EVER A CHOICE?

[liliella]

Grafitti in the Ladies’ Room

When there is no one around to notice, I take a look inside the ladies room.
Sanitary napkins/tampon dispenser.
Lipstick
Cologne
Feminine hygiene spray.

Graffiti in the stalls:
Alma elder is a loving lay.
Fighting for Peace
Is
Fucking for Charity

Mammy set me on your knee,
I’m pregnant and he wont marry me.

Buy INCEST – a game the whole family can play.

I think my boyfriend has
Homosexual tendencies.
What should I do to help him?
Answer please.

Castrate him!

Don’t let him fcuk you up the asshole.

All boys are – some just don’t try to hide it.

Be exellent in bed- try the modern
dance to help you become Nubile.

Ask him to introduce you to some of his boyfriends!

Get rid of your virginity so you wont
Be afraid of real men.

Accept him as he is and find another
Boyfriend.

Send him to a doctor you dope
(after speaking to him it of course)

RAPE ME PLEASE

Jay Kimball
Is the worst fcuk
In Kansas

The language is harsher that I expected.
Somehow I expect only men to think in terms of
Lay and get laid, like pay and being paid; no nonsense,
In and out, wham bang, thank you ma’am.

“To sleep with” is a more feminine, graceful,
implying to wake up with, to be comforted,
lingering, loving.

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all of the above and ones to follow belong to EVE MERRIAM.
i couldn't take credit for this.